Welcome darkness, welcome Rammstein...

Sometimes they suit me so well... Like a glove for my feelings - restraining and guiding... So soothing...

Playing album - Rammstein - Rosenrot

I'm amazed by the phases in life and how they always come back. Spiral after spiral... Never the same, never much different. Sometimes (like today) I think this is the only thing that guarantees me that I'm still alive. Alive like then...
at the tree, looking in the ground, asking why the world goes in such an abominable way...
at the playground in the moonlight, talking like never before with somebody so important, never knowing that this talk is going to start everything...
like when I saw her face and thanked God she's alive...
like every time pain grasps my heart like it's going to hold it forever...

It's kind of masochistic but I actually enjoy this state. Can you help but enjoy something that tells you you're alive?

Stirb nicht vor mir...